About me:

My name is Nella, 19, I'm a Jesieniara, as we say it in Poland (basically a person who really likes autumn). I love moths, cats, sharks and animals in general, I like cycling and my interests are: technology, electronics, photography, also a little bit astronomy (not astrology, get the difference please.). I love 3D printing and data hoarding. I mainly play Minecraft and sometimes also something else. From time to time I'll also watch some movies, I live in Poland and I'm majoring in computer science. Why do I need this website? I don't know. I'm just autistic and antisocial and can't interact normally with people. I didn't know what to do with this site so I'll just dump my thoughts here, even though nobody gives a fuck. If you somehow managed to get here not through my social media or discord than congrats!


Discord Tag: 4no4, Steam: fournofour, YouTube


Pinned stuff:


If some people hate you for being yourself, the best thing to do is to live and be yourself.


If you're feeling bad, you have no choice, you will be okay, and you'll thank yourself for trying to get through this.


If buying isn't owning, than piracy isn't stealing. Please, let's bring back right to repair... The biggest channel on YouTube, covering this kind of stuff that i know of is the one created by Louis Rossmann. if you want to know more about current stage of our rights of ownership, his channel is the right place to start.


I have never used, and never will use tiktok, and recommend you do the same.


Logs:


25th of October, 2025 Anyone else got mental holes in the shape of memories?

23rd of October, 2025 I finally made it! It took 6 prototypes and hours of misery but it was worth it and it's sick. Krasnogorsk Meteor 5-1 17-69mm F1.9 16mm film lens. Making of the adapter took really long because it's some dumb Krasnogorsk-2 mount and i had to made it almost from scratch. It feels so good now that it's finished and i can have fun with it.

an image of a camera with an adapter and the lens. an image of a camera with an adapter and the lens.
an image thaken through the lens. an image thaken through the lens.

22nd of October, 2025 i fucking hate teatchers with inflated egos...

12th of October, 2025 An m42-E adapter turned into a speedbooster lol


an image of a camera with a mod part an image of a camera with a mod part
an image showing the result of the mod.

I just printed a tube so the lens (taken from old, broken binoculars) fits into the adapter, a looot of fiddling with the placement of the glass inside the tube and it works! The magnification is about 0.8x, so it changes the 1.5x crop ratio into a 1.2x. The edges are quite soft wide open (but sharp when closed down), but it also gives me the swirly bokeh effect which is cool asf. The tube with the glass element can be easily taken out by pushing on it so it can be swiched between being a speedbooster and just an adapter very easily.



11th of October, 2025 I turned a lens into anamorfake :3


an image of a lens and a mod part an image of the mod part in a lens
an image showing the result of the mod. an image showing the result of the mod.

This one's a a Meyer-Optik Görlitz Domiplan 2.8/50. The thin center string is just extruded transluscent PETG painted with a blue marker,



5th of October, 2025 Listening to the "Drones" album and reading the about section of these songs at genius.com is uhh... ._.



3rd of October, 2025 it's finally getting colder outside, gosh
Idk if it's a waste of money, but it makes me feel better (so it probably isn't a waste?) to own at least a little bit of music. That's all the albums that i have.
an image of all the CD's that I currently own.

27th of September, 2025 I just watched both parts of "Edge Runner" and i don't know what to say
and i wanna hug :c

23rd of September, 2025 I feel like this song is a kind of representation of my mind or just the way i am internally. The loud chaotic parts in between the slow, more silent moments of stillness. The last part, with the strange repeating sound reminds me of moments where i realize how unstable i am and how weird things are, the moments where i get this pseudo-poetic attitude where i talk to myself about what I have done, what i can do, what is going on and what isn't. I just fucking love Muse's songs/albums.

21st of September, 2025 I just watched some old photos and videos from old SD cards and fuck, i wanna relive these moments. I feel like i forgot to bring a lot of stuff from these days and I didn't live them to the fullest. The weirdest thing is I'm gonna feel (kinda) the same in the future, about right now. I wish i could vent like that by saying stuff laid on top of random footage that i've recorded but I hate my voice and don't know what would come out of it. I guess I should try, it could help me with building sentences and other yapping stuff. I wonder how many people will see what i'm typing, if any. Idk, I really wana document my life, I forgot so much of my days spent here that I'm getting insecure about it (?) Do you feel the same? Anyone? What is even going on with me, I need a fucking hug, I need_

20th of September, 2025 My plug in baby, In unbroken virgin realities, Is tired of living

19th of September, 2025 Is it normal to argue with yourself?

18th of September, 2025 I love this lens, It's a Takumar Auto Albinar Special 135mm F2.8, here's a short vid I made with it
an image of an old camera lens in a violet light, showcasing its beautiful fluorescent details.

13th of September, 2025 I wish I wasn't so awkward -_-

1st of September, 2025 The school year has just started today and I already feel like shit

30th of August, 2025 another year of this mess in here went by

25th of August, 2025 are a few last days of holidays of not working to much to ask for? -_-
I give myself too many projects to work on simultaneously :/

18th of August, 2025 how the fuck do you even trust people...

10th of August, 2025 came back from a trip, it was okay

7th of August, 2025 this is one of the best channels on youtube.

3rd of August, 2025 forgeting is scary...

29th of July, 2025 And our freedom's consuming itself. Internet censorship is the worst thing that can happen right now.

28th of July, 2025 Old things break because of their age. New things break because they're designed to break.

23rd of July, 2025 I wish the internet wasn't dead

21st of July, 2025 Remember the gone? Remember the process.

20th of July, 2025 idk, it's 1 in the night and i'm feeling how weird things are..
some sort of weird landscape, some might say eerie, some might say cool, some might say... a part. of some sort of 'pile'.

18th of July, 2025 I have no Idea what i've just made but the warm glow of a dimmed incandescent bulb is so calming.
a weird thing made from some 3D-printed parts, a very old PCB and a small incandescent lightbulb.
(the HiFi is a Pioneer SX-F21 and a pair of Bowers&Wilkins 685, it sounds just incredible for the price.)

17th of July, 2025 Imperfection is what makes handmade special

14th of July, 2025 piles are never over

13th of July, 2025 Fear of the water, Fear of the water.

12th of July, 2025 I hope it will be okay with her.

8th of July, 2025 Be yourself, be "weird".

7th of July, 2025 Back To The Future is peak.

3rd of July, 2025 Hopes for not feeling like shit someday just got raised. Happiness has to be fought for...

1st of July, 2025 I just found out that there are 700 unique cat gifs on tenor with a "balls {number}" text lmao

29th June, 2025. I hate crowded places... Too many people and it's so fucking loud. How are people enjoying places like that, I almost had a fucking panic atack... Also, feels good being home again, too bad i cant have a cuddle :c

27th June, 2025. I feel like i'm being tortured by my brain.

26th June, 2025. I just remade that site, it's 2 in the morning and got some random motivation to do this, idk if it's a start of something important to me or wtv.

I hate that society.

Yesterday shoud've been one of the most important days in my life but no, ofc it had to be delayed, and it makes me feel like shit.

I can't stand being in this... thing...